The Minute That Changes Everything
Personally I love routine. For a while. Two years is the longest my interest maintains, however. In that two year period I would eat the same food every day, exercise in the same place, work at the same location, pursue the same leisure time activities.
And then I stop. Suddenly it doesn’t make sense anymore and I’m wondering what’s next.
Fortunately there always is a “next.” And always it’s something I can’t predict. Logic is irrelevant in this process. It’s total trust. I hold a stance of “I know nothing and I’m open to everything” and I wait. I can hear groans.
When you consider saying “I’m open” do you want to add disclaimers? “Except ‘no’ to homelessness. I don’t want to be uncomfortable. Or really inconvenienced in any way. No, I’m available but I have my limits. So you can let me know what you prefer, God, but I’ll have to consider it and see. Then I’ll get back to you.”
Why do we fear God’s wishes for us? We must think that God hates us and wants to make us miserable. We trust our minds more than we trust God’s love. And yet, you must admit, your best thinking hasn’t brought you peace.
We can’t expect peace to result from our intellect’s activity. Peace resides in the very deepest core of our being. And that’s one place our minds can’t go. Our minds stay on the surface. Our minds like to move the furniture around and look out the window and change the wallpaper but our minds simply aren’t equipped to practice presence . And they don’t want to. They want to stay busy and to be In Control and to avoid vulnerability and to skate past all the muck that can’t be polished or filed.
Most of our lives is muck—feelings that don’t make sense, memories we can’t release, fear which invisibly binds us to something we swear we don’t want but won’t leave. And all our minds can say is “Just don’t think about it.”
Actually, that’s perfect advice. We don’t need to think; we need to experience. Experience is being present to ourselves at the very core of who we are. Not understanding, not analyzing, not planning, not avoiding. Just being. Fully and immediately. Embracing the second and saying “Yes.”
“No big deal,” you reply but wait. Truly, it is a big deal. When we consider that all we have to do this lifetime is be available for guidance one second at a time and it starts with this second, well then, we’d better pay attention. Now. The part of our life that counts isn’t next year or after the degree or when the kids are grown. The most important minute of your life is this minute. And this minute.
Now is the time and this is the place and you are all you need. So you say “Yes” to what exists this second. And you do it again.