Being Present with Me
Knowing reality involves more than opening our eyes and looking around. “Seeing” happens when we are ready to see. Seeing depends upon our availability. It’s not similar to plunking ourselves down in front of a TV and passively acknowledging movement outside us. Seeing draws from roots which shoot down to our soul.
What does “availability” mean?
Availability refers to showing up and being present without a thought to the impression we make or the feelings which arise inside us. We’re not paying attention to other people or to circumstances. Our focus and our attention move inside. We say “I am available” we wait and we pay attention. We don’t know what thoughts, feelings, memories, or insights will arise. We practice availability when we allow ourselves to go to any depth inside. We allow ourselves to be carried. When we practice availability we don’t think or resist. We may notice our fear. In fact, we notice everything. But we commit to the ride. Wherever we are carried we practice presence.
Availability implies trust. We know that Spirit in us pulls us to healing in our own personal terms. We don’t have to understand. We just show up and practice availability. Availability equals presence plus trust plus commitment with a healthy dose of humility. When we practice availability we enter the realm of the gods and we defer to the highest and wisest part of us. We move into our own Source-consciousness and we say “Yes. Yes, I am available. Yes, I commit to this ride. Yes, I accept a guidance my mind can’t fathom. Yes, I participate in my life but I don’t own it. I allow life to teach me. I am available to learn. I acknowledge the Source within me. Yes to this second.”